Friday, February 10, 2006

I am learning more about myself with each passing day and how to interact with others. I am planting the seeds of understanding and patience in my heart. I realised that I should not be so judgemental and label someone as dao or boring as that is simply very rude! Being a chatterbox and an inquisitive girl too, I tend to freak people out with my overzealous nature as I bombard them with questions after questions. I am not surprise that many of you feel that I am a gabbling idiot, who speaks no sense and won't stop talking. I used to jump to conclusion that people who gave me one word ans or refuse disclose much about themselves r boring and after a while I will simply just stop talking to them as I felt that I was talking to myself. At times I usually find myself coming out of conversations with others realising that they know so much about me and yet I don't know anything about them. However I realised that it is easy to blame the other party for annoying you but not easy to admit that you have annoyed the other party too with your non-stop 24 hr radio station! So now I am slowing down my steps to understand the people around me=) I know I have made many mistakes in life by giving a friendship or a goal a time limit and if it was not attained within that certain time frame I will just give it up! But now I realised that what I need to cultivate within myself is perseverance and patience for every aspect in life. Being quiet is not equals to un-interesting! Like though how much I love the company of others there are just instances when I NEED TO BE ALONE! My bestie Shan is an introvert but I still respect her loads and I love her to the max as she is one of the most interesting girl on this planet. She is a great listener, she dishes out the best advices and she is one I can run to for shelter when I feel that my world is too "crowded"! so hopefully through time I will grow to be more like her=)